Life's blessings...

Every morning, I have this routine and it always involves watching The Today show while I am getting ready, I feel that that is my morning cup of coffee, to rev me up on my news and get me through my day but it just seems that everyday it gets more and more depressing in the news, so and so is closing, another place is filing for bankruptcy, and this company needs help, and the needy need more help and it just got to the point where I just thought "why" what is the point and I have thought how much worse can this get? But, it was just through all of that one day when I was driving to work and just spending my 20 minutes worshipping and talking to God, that I realized that through this whole economic crisis, I have a home, I have a job, I have food to put on the table, I have so many things to be thankful for, not only because the holiday season is approaching but just everyday! It just amazes me that despite the fact that you can have nothing, you can still have it all! I know for me personally it has been hard to not be bummed out, but I tell you what I have become more and more excited this year about Christmas and spending time with our families, and just enjoying the company of everyone this year, I have had to restrain myself from getting my Christmas tub out and start making it look a lot like Christmas in the Burkholder household .. but I will wait until this coming weekend to do all of that : )

So, today is the big day for us! We get to have our first ultrasound and find out if this little thing kicking me is a boy or a girl! I had to spend extra time this morning just asking God to go before me in this appointment, because the devil is just creeping in my head saying "what if your blood results came back bad," or "what if they find something," and it has been almost a burden instead of excitement, and so I just spent some time almost just meditating on the goodness of God and no matter what how amazing he is and that we should spend this time in excitement to see what an amazing miracle this is that we get to see grow before us! So, I will have to let everyone know what we are having come tomorrow : ) : )